it hurts me so just to see you go around with someone new

Okay it's really late (or early?), but I did promise a blog, and I do remember having some things to say. First off, I haven't been able to sleep for the last three or four days. I have no idea why. That one night I slept at 5:00 AM, okay maybe I understand that one. As for the rest of the nights, who knows.

For lunch some of us went to Black Angus, and everybody ate for cheaper thanks to me. After that I went to LPC to sell back some books while everybody else went to Best Buy or something. That LPC bookstore, man. Mofos. I sold back four books for a whopping 48 dollars!. That's left than half of what I paid for my precalc book, which I got 29 dollars back. On one of my books, I got back a whole dollar! Kiss my off foot, please. What a rip off. Some Integra gave me a fly by coming while leaving campus. It wasn't even a GSR! So while on the freeway, I returned the favor and gave him a flyby. Then we went to Target where I finished up my holiday shopping, then we strolled around the mall, but didn't get anything. Stupid Nick. Now I want to get a Swarovski crystal. Add that to my list of things to buy, I suppose.

Will and I went to see the Nutcracker out in Oakland, and I really liked it. I had no idea ballets had no spoken dialogue! Haha I was sitting there watching and wondering why nobody on stage was talking, haha. It's a good show, and fun to watch. This is part of my self culturing project. I've seen high school productions, college-level productions, and now an amateur production. Now it's time to see something professional, like out in the city. Now all I need now is a sucker, err someone to go see it with me. After the show we stayed around because Will wanted to see someone. It's okay man, you're going back later tomorrow again, haha. Oops. Then I went to his house to write up my x-mas cards.

Ken wouldn't wrap things for me, so now there's no excuse for all the janky wrapping out there. Yep, it was me. I did my best Santa Clause impression by going around town and seeing people and dropping stuff on for all the kiddies (okay not everybody I visited was a kiddie), but like half the people weren't home or something, haha. Anyways I saw who I could, and tried to contact the rest.

I finally finished packing. The brother gave up and fell asleep in his chair.

Now the not-so-fun part.

I'll be gone for a week, maybe through New Years, too. I've been looking forward to this trip away from here. There's been a lot of stuff lately, and I think I just need to get away from it all. No, there are no problems, but there are issues inside of myself and around me that just need to be put on hold. Things have either been boring or suck. I've gotten way too many tidbits of "official" news lately; way too much that I can take at once. Whatever. A lot of crap is what most of this is. Yeah, so our fleet's basically sunk right now, and the tugboat/support type ships are freaking dead in the water. Ken needs to give me lessons in how to be a thug. Finals were a drag. I've had some bad karma lately, which I still maintain I deserve for being a jerk. Human nature at it's best here, people. Vicious is what this is.

I hate being lied to. Who cares about the little things like what time to show up for something. The big important things deserve more than that. What's worse are the times when someone lies, yet it's not really their fault, whether it be because things are out of their own control, or they're unable to forsee what goes on days, weeks, or months down the road. Whatever. There can be a source, but there's not always blame to place. Maybe it's my fault. Maybe I was lying to myself. Forgiving is easy. Of course one is supposed to forgive, regardless of fault or not. Even I forgive myself for being such an idiot. As for forgetting? Never. You can try, but it just doesn't work that way. Things change, people change, everything is inevitable to change. Change is difficult, though. Yeah I'm talking out of my rear now. Yay. I'm going to stop now because this is going to be part of my 1000+ word blog at the end of the year.

Regardless of where something came from, respect it if it's good. Not like those hackers, though. With having the big time advantage. Cheater. Oh, I've also heard a tidbit (another one of them tidbits!) of news that occured back in April or something. Boy, I don't know if that would have affected things or not, probably not. That's too bad, it was good, too. I always knew I still had it, some how, in some form. Too bad that news has been long expired. If it were current, everyone I talk to on a weekly basis would have lunch, on me.

Everybody please have a safe and wonderful holiday. Don't get drunk too badly now. See you all soon. I just heard the newspaper delivery.

"I don't trip like you, foo."
Just had to add the "foo" part in.

"You weren't even being cheap; it was free."

"You were eleven short. Are you gonna get those 11?"
-"No."
"Then you owe 11 hits. Now you just thought of two, you need nine more."
Sucks to have useless hookups across town.