Again My Rant On Religion
Uh. All I have to say is. Either you believe in it and follow it, or don't do it at all. As with many things in life, don't half ass it. Don't want to do something, end up doing it, and end up feeling guilty or that you sinned doing it. It's your choice, don't make excuses. This is why some people who claim it are bs'n themselves and others.