i don't know who you are but i, i'm with you

Lemme think what I did the last two days. I went to another cousin's house here in Anaheim Hills and spent my day with their family. The last few days I've seen a few movies, including Unfaithful, which I liked, even though non of the scandelous scenes were close to hardcore. I also finally saw Save the Last Dance, which I liked because I'm a sucker for those types of movies. The last flick I saw was Lilo and Stitch, and I remember it being cute and all, but I also remember falling asleep part way through it. Oh well. I'll have to watch it when I get home or something. I bought the In the Bedroom dvd, which I've been looking at for a while, and I finally got it at Blockbuster used, utilizing the 3 for 2 deal which my cousin and I split. I look forward to watching that movie. Guess what. There are some pretty weird people out there. The other night I was going to watch Catch Me If You Can with my cousin and her friend, but the friend's mom wasn't comfortable with an 18 year old going. Uhm hello there. I'm her daughter's friend's cousin shoot. I'll sit by myself a row behind them or something; I just wanted to see the movie. Oh well. Save me $6.50.

During the day I went to a shopping place called Fashion Island, and though it featured department stores like Neiman Marcus and Bloomingdales, there weren't many stores for men. I guess the idea was to have the ladies shop while the guys forked over the money or something. Haha. Suckers. Wait a minute, doh. Nevermind. As for tv, I forgot to watch Alias, but I remember flipping between the Lakers game (which they won), The Sound of Music, and Bedazzled. Around 11:30 PM I went to Denny's with some family and friends, and we chilled there for a while drinking milk shakes and root beer floats. I then spent some time in Westminster (sp?) looking for some people that were never found. After that I helped celebrate some Lebonese heritage.

What I just read was nasty and disturbing.

god, give me the strength and the courage i need to move forward with my life; have to let him be

Woke up, and watched Windtalkers. The war scenes were nice and all, but I don't think there was enough movie going into the actual codetalking part. After watching the movie and eating lunch, my aunt came by and picked me up to go shopping at Brea mall. I didn't get anything, but I wanted to. I needed to make up for yesterday at Armani where my cousin got a 25 percent discount off the same rack, but I didn't. I was finally going to buy something from Abercrombie, but they didn't have the color that I wanted. I then helped my relatives to digicam shopping, and I told them to check out the Canon S230 (good camera but played out), the Sony P9 (stupid proprietory stuff), and the Olympus C-50 (a little bankish). Then I wached Trapped. The movie started good, but ended sucky and unbelievable. Tomorrow I will watch Unfaithful. Then I went to the batting cages, where the machine was shooting out unlimited pitches. It's nice to know I can still own 55 mph pitches. Too bad the faster machines were closed. It got to the point where I started working on my bunting and taking swings from the left side. Unfortunately my bunting skills are gone, and my left handed swings are weaksauce.

Stupid bad Karma. Getting hollered at by highschool freshmen. Crap. Then again, I kinda cheated on this one. Stupid three years ago or something. Man. That makes me a hacker. That also makes me a hypocrite and cheater. Oh wait I said that again. I'm also a "craddle robber." Oh man. Suck.

"StrikeoutK: how's the toilet
Vegetto 103: green :-(

me: i said hi, then gave a smile
chester: crap you mean the grin
chester: you ruined it, it's over

Not too while ago I got back from seeing Gangs of New York. I personally liked the story and enjoyed the movie, but I can see why some wouldn't. The mofo working at the ticket booth wouldn't give me two student tickets, citing something along the lines of "one ticket per id." What kind of garbage is that? It's not his money, it's the theaters, and now that I think about it, it's my money dangit. I guess I shouldn't complain too much; Regal doesn't even offer student discounts, those punks. Before the movie I met some of my cousin's friends - two guys (forgot names... who cares, haha), and two girls, Jasmine and Katie. Though not really my crowd, these kids were pretty nice. It's pretty funny how these kids live in Anaheim Hills, but they're still stingy with dinero.

The cousin was lazy so he made me drive. I haven't driven a suv in a while, but getting reacquanited with the harder braking didn't take too long. Too bad the keys to the IS300 weren't around tonight. That would have made for a swet rides. Pics to come later.

Yes, while I am a "nerd" and get made fun of by my uncle about being straight or not, I do not live under a rock. When I wake up I have to go shopping with some relatives to help buy a digicam because they're noobs. Olympus 5050 then?

i don't believe you wanna leave like this

Hello all. Ah yes I'm still in socal. Christmas eve I went to my uncles house in Anaheim Hills, and spent the rest of the day there watching tv and hanging out with the family. As is tradition in our family, we had hotpot for dinner! Hahaha. Later we opened presents; I got a nice Guess? sweater and a swiss army combo set or something. Of course money was a popular gift. I spend the night at my aunt's house, and for Christmas day I went snowboarding. I haven't gone since last new years, but it's good to know that I can still board. I took one hard fall in the beginning, but that was basically it. We got back the Anaheim Hills, and Kevin and I stayed another night at my aunt's house, but in the morning Kevin went back to Monterey Park because he got sick bawhahaha. Loser. As for today, I went shopping at South Coast Plaza out in Costa Mesa. Simply put, that mall owns. I got some stuff from Armani Exchange and Saks Fifth Avenue. After being shown around Orange County, I'm sitting here waiting for dinner. I'm staying in Anaheim Hills for anothern night.

The other night I saw a movie called 100 Girls. I didn't catch the beginning, but from what I saw it was a pretty cool chick flick type movie. Also, last night I saw Moulin Rouge. Great movie. If you haven't seen it yet, go see it. Love story and all that grand stuff. I'm such a sucker for that stuff.

I learned something new today.

Socal girls. Norcal girls. There is a difference.

Merry Christmas Everybody!
Hope you all had a safe, fun, and not too drunk holiday.

and all i want is one thing:
tell me my true love is here

Went to dentist today. Drew some young guy instead of the guy I've been seeing for like twelve years. I tell you, these newer generation dentists are pretty weaksauce. It just isn't the same anymore. Traffic on the freeways down here is savage - it's like what we see in the city... except this isn't in a city. Pretty hardcore. Went to Krispy Kreme after to pick up a dozen doughnuts. The woman behind the counter messed up my freaking order. Boo. Ate dinner at a Korean barbeque place. Good food there. Back at home we watched the video of Sunday's dinner. Let's just say my dad owes a few apologies, haha. Didn't get a chance to finish watching The Wedding Planner, suck.

"Like a hand-me-down."
Wt heck he actually said that?

i did it for you and all you gave me was a smile

Down in Socal
Whoot so I'm down in socal nowl Monterey Park to be exact. My family left around 11:15 PM ish yesterday morning, and we ended up getting here around 5:00 or something. Not too bad of a trip. I read some Swimming Across: A Memoir, the book I've been casually reading for about eight months now. Went out to eat some hot pot, and that was about it for the night. Even when I'm 350 miles away, the guys still manage to make fun of me. =\ Oh btw, I got here first.

Went out to lunch today, and I must say that fried rice portions down here own what's up in norcal. Same price, double the portion. Simple as that. I watched a little bit of Summer Catch. Yeah the movie probably sucks, but I'm always down for movies like it. Too bad I didn't get an opportunity to finish it. Today was my grandma's 70th birthday (Lunar calendar), so we celebrated that doing the chinese banquet type thing. Three three-figure cost tables accomodated friends and family, and everybody had a great time. Most of the men got drunk, and most of us third generation family members got a nice little buzz. My brother and I had to drag out dad to and from the bathroom, and up into bed when we got home. A few uncles had to be dragged around, as well. While I was in the restaurant bathroom, some amigo started talking to me in espanol. Haha, that was the second time I had to put my schooling to use. He was saying something about his kid or someone back home in Mexico being a soccer champion. Oh well. Picking up on keywords is the main idea when talking in an unfamiler language. I think I did alright.

Embarrasing moment: So the dad comes by with a wine glass (restaurant had not shot glasses) of straight vodka, and he sets it down to me. Turns out he wanted me to "try" some, but at the time I thought he wanted me to shoot it. As I'm hitting it, he reaches for the glass, and I end up wasting some of it on my chin and shirt. What a waste. Boo.

it hurts me so just to see you go around with someone new

Okay it's really late (or early?), but I did promise a blog, and I do remember having some things to say. First off, I haven't been able to sleep for the last three or four days. I have no idea why. That one night I slept at 5:00 AM, okay maybe I understand that one. As for the rest of the nights, who knows.

For lunch some of us went to Black Angus, and everybody ate for cheaper thanks to me. After that I went to LPC to sell back some books while everybody else went to Best Buy or something. That LPC bookstore, man. Mofos. I sold back four books for a whopping 48 dollars!. That's left than half of what I paid for my precalc book, which I got 29 dollars back. On one of my books, I got back a whole dollar! Kiss my off foot, please. What a rip off. Some Integra gave me a fly by coming while leaving campus. It wasn't even a GSR! So while on the freeway, I returned the favor and gave him a flyby. Then we went to Target where I finished up my holiday shopping, then we strolled around the mall, but didn't get anything. Stupid Nick. Now I want to get a Swarovski crystal. Add that to my list of things to buy, I suppose.

Will and I went to see the Nutcracker out in Oakland, and I really liked it. I had no idea ballets had no spoken dialogue! Haha I was sitting there watching and wondering why nobody on stage was talking, haha. It's a good show, and fun to watch. This is part of my self culturing project. I've seen high school productions, college-level productions, and now an amateur production. Now it's time to see something professional, like out in the city. Now all I need now is a sucker, err someone to go see it with me. After the show we stayed around because Will wanted to see someone. It's okay man, you're going back later tomorrow again, haha. Oops. Then I went to his house to write up my x-mas cards.

Ken wouldn't wrap things for me, so now there's no excuse for all the janky wrapping out there. Yep, it was me. I did my best Santa Clause impression by going around town and seeing people and dropping stuff on for all the kiddies (okay not everybody I visited was a kiddie), but like half the people weren't home or something, haha. Anyways I saw who I could, and tried to contact the rest.

I finally finished packing. The brother gave up and fell asleep in his chair.

Now the not-so-fun part.

I'll be gone for a week, maybe through New Years, too. I've been looking forward to this trip away from here. There's been a lot of stuff lately, and I think I just need to get away from it all. No, there are no problems, but there are issues inside of myself and around me that just need to be put on hold. Things have either been boring or suck. I've gotten way too many tidbits of "official" news lately; way too much that I can take at once. Whatever. A lot of crap is what most of this is. Yeah, so our fleet's basically sunk right now, and the tugboat/support type ships are freaking dead in the water. Ken needs to give me lessons in how to be a thug. Finals were a drag. I've had some bad karma lately, which I still maintain I deserve for being a jerk. Human nature at it's best here, people. Vicious is what this is.

I hate being lied to. Who cares about the little things like what time to show up for something. The big important things deserve more than that. What's worse are the times when someone lies, yet it's not really their fault, whether it be because things are out of their own control, or they're unable to forsee what goes on days, weeks, or months down the road. Whatever. There can be a source, but there's not always blame to place. Maybe it's my fault. Maybe I was lying to myself. Forgiving is easy. Of course one is supposed to forgive, regardless of fault or not. Even I forgive myself for being such an idiot. As for forgetting? Never. You can try, but it just doesn't work that way. Things change, people change, everything is inevitable to change. Change is difficult, though. Yeah I'm talking out of my rear now. Yay. I'm going to stop now because this is going to be part of my 1000+ word blog at the end of the year.

Regardless of where something came from, respect it if it's good. Not like those hackers, though. With having the big time advantage. Cheater. Oh, I've also heard a tidbit (another one of them tidbits!) of news that occured back in April or something. Boy, I don't know if that would have affected things or not, probably not. That's too bad, it was good, too. I always knew I still had it, some how, in some form. Too bad that news has been long expired. If it were current, everyone I talk to on a weekly basis would have lunch, on me.

Everybody please have a safe and wonderful holiday. Don't get drunk too badly now. See you all soon. I just heard the newspaper delivery.

"I don't trip like you, foo."
Just had to add the "foo" part in.

"You weren't even being cheap; it was free."

"You were eleven short. Are you gonna get those 11?"
-"No."
"Then you owe 11 hits. Now you just thought of two, you need nine more."
Sucks to have useless hookups across town.

Okay... commence and complete packing, then blog.

Tell me that was a joke. If it was, then I'm able to laugh it off.

I should have been a thug. Maybe Ken can help me out.

My system is still janky. But I don't think backing up 50 gb worth of stuff on cdrs is practical. What the heck am I going to do. Now I realized that I still have to write some xmas cards up. Crap. Do that in the morning then. I've been awake for < 12 hours, but goodnight anyways.

now love is a game that we both like to play
will i win or lose... if i go, or if i stay

Whoo I formatted my system, so now I lost all of my passwords in IE, and my quotes file which had all the quotes since January. Freak. So yeah, I woke up past 5:00 PM. Still didn't do much. I heard it rained really bad during the daytime. Sucks for anyone who had to trek through it. I saw the Lakers get spanked by the Nets, followed by a good game between the Spurs and the Kings. After that Will, Rob, and Tom came over and watched White Oleander. I personally held the dissenting opinion and liked the movie. To me, it was moving and touching and made me appreciate what I have. I guess you have to just be able to watch that kind of movie to enjoy it. You can't always watch an action movie. Sometime in there Gareth and Tim stopped by, then Charles dropped in. Funny how I beat out all of my "eyes and ears". I'm good. Then we just watched some sportscenter type shows and bs'd about the same things we've been bs'ing about for the past "11 months", which would make it sometime like next February.

Anyways here is my, err, Ken's (aka the moron) LAP intro paragraph:

"Love is like the wind, you can't see it, but you can feel it." If we truly love someone, time and place wouldn't matter. True love is difficult to find and when we do, we're likely to get lost. Though the loves in our life are not always physically with us, you know love when you love someone without seeing them. Even if the love we find doesn't seem possible at first, if the love is true then eventually everything will come into place. Heartfelt love can surpass obstacles that appear before it. Through the interlacing love connections in his novel, The English Patient, Michael Ondaatje establishes that place and time themselves are extraneous to human connection.

1) With asking me to write an intro paragraph when I haven't read the book.
2) With asking me to bs something up on the subject matter. Do you think I am the right person to help you write about something like this?
Damn, I'm good.

flaureea (5:45:12 PM): i meant to crap

"He's smoking crap. He doesn't even deserve crack or Willy's weed. He's smoking crap."
Yeah, he is.

Oh that felt nice, considering I haven't used the bathroom in ~14 hours.

Uh I don't think that was such a good idea. I only saw daylight for a few minutes today.

Good morning. Excuse me while I share a chapter from my life's story and for reading up on human ego defense mechanisms.

why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?

I got up early and headed out to cvhs. Turns out the meeting wasn't at 9:00 in the morning, but rather that's tutorial. AP Stat with old Cav' is still the same stat. Boring as heck and time wasting central. More time is being wasted, but in proportion to class length, it's basically the same proportion, haha. There's a bit of knowledge from How to Lie With Statistics. Haha. Then I went to the AP Calc class with Mr. Mitch. That guys reputations preceeds him. He seems really cool. Too bad I didn't take calc back then. Then again, I would have gotten owned. Oh wait, I don't need calc for that. Ate pizza for lunch in there; one of the infamous calc parties were going on. I saw to Mr. Waldron, and we talked about how it's important to be able to understand people and the way we think and know more than just how to do math and junk like that.

Will, Rob, Gerald, and I caught the 10:15 PM screening of The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers. Before that we stopped at Target to get some two cent sodas from Nick. The movie is three hours of entertainment, what a movie should be. It is a must see. The action's great, and I felt as if I were there witnessing the events unfolding. I can't wait to see part three. The irony for the day is that my prompt for the english final was how visual storytelling has been affected by technology, which in this case results in a good affect. Haha irony, it seems to follow me around these days.

The drive home from the theater was great. Gerald and I made it home from Regal in like seven minutes. I got all that the ecu in my engine would give me before the governer kicked in. Who cares about the speed limit. Dangerous? Maybe. Illegal? Definately. I needed to do that. I needed to experience that rush and feel that sense of relief afterwards. I needed to have that short edge. Too bad I didn't have my camera to take a picture of the speedometer.

Heaven hates me right now. Got a parking ticket today. Everything just wants to kick me right now at the same time or something. I knew this was going to happen. This is my punishment for being an evil person. What goes around comes around, folks. Remember that.

It's too bad Willy isn't here right now. He would bust out with some saying about how dumb I am. Again, that man was correct and called it right.

"Man's life is nasty, brutish, and short." - Thomas Hobbes

ShrimpSiumai (2:33:45 AM): pls
ShrimpSiumai (2:33:45 AM): pls
ShrimpSiumai (2:33:48 AM): come back in 1 piece

[17:25] (i) need to apply a vacation for my liver

athena r0x (9:07:10 PM): lucky bastard

me: "You just want some free stuff from me."
gerald: "Noo, it'll make you feel better."

"No,you weren't dreaming."
One of the few times in my life, I wasn't dreaming for once!

[04:09] altho maybe you'll kill someone
[04:09] *shrugs

[04:15] that's the motherload right there

[04:55] i'm guessing she's not lactose intolerant

Celine Dion & Luciano Pavarotti - I Hate You Then I Love You

Hey, hey everybody. Look who's on TV? Look who just got famous. Don't you know it should have been me? Well I'm not really bitter, I'm not really mad. I love to see other people get everything I ever wanted to have. I don't really care, how big they get. I hate you, leave me alone. Why can't I be cool like them? I used to have a girlfriend. I treated her so bad, she went out, and found another lead singer. Maybe she just likes guys in bands. I give up on everything. All my dreams are dead. Maybe I'll get a shotgun and try to blow her right out of my head. Everybody says, "How come you ain't made it yet?" I hate you, leave me alone. Why can't I get my girl back? I knew you wouldn't understand just what I'm trying to do because you're not me and I'm so glad that I am not you. I know it's my problem, there's nothing I can do but I don't think there is no reason. I don't think there's no excuse for you. Well I've learned my lesson, hope you've learned it to, and if they're gonna go and do it to me, well I guess I'm gonna have to go and do it to you. I don't really care how much you cry. I hate you, leave me alone.

I just finished my last final. It was an in class essay on how technology has changed visual storytelling in cinema. I used the old and new Star Wars movies as examples of how there's more emphasis on special effects today instead of storytelling and character development. I think I did alright.

It is quite early.

and if i know you you're doing that thing
every day just doing that thing
i can't take you doing that thing you do

Forced myself to wake up before 10:00 AM to compete a few sociology mini essays. They turned out pretty crappy. Around 11:45 or so Jhermaine, Nick and I went to LPC so we could turn in those essays, because they were the finals. Nick then got a transcript or something, and Jhermaine and I got some blue books for the english final later today.

We then went to Will's house to meet up with Will, Tom, and Rob. As for the drive to Akemi's house, I rode in Jhermaine's trunk. The best juxtaposition I can make as to what it feels like is a roller coaster ride on your side where you don't know the turns and dips coming up. It's actually pretty fun back there. Brace your feet against the side, lock in your elbows, and throw your hands up and it makes for quite the ride. After meeting and waiting on a few more peopel at Akemi's, we went down to Union City where Rob, Tom, Will, and I had some phó. After finishing the food, we headed over to Tapx to meet up with the other people and chilled there for a bit. I had a tapioca iced coffee. Eventually we returned to Will's house, and kicked it there for a while. Things must not be going my way because I lost two straight games playing NBA Inside Drive. I think that's the first time that has ever happened.

At home I didn't do much, just sat around and watched some television. Caught Gilmore's and Real World, nothing really big happened. After an hour of negotiations with six teams, no trades were made in the fantasy basketball league.

Something is raining on my little parade here. I think the Heavens above are finally starting to punish me for all the cynical and sinister things I've lately done. Turns out I can't find my last last week's paycheck. I could really use that money, too, especially after all this Christmas shopping. First losing two games playing Inside Drive, now this. Garbage. This brings me up my next rant: money.

I do have enough money to get around and get whatever I want, but I don't really like to waste it. Yet at the same time, I'll sometimes spend it like it's candy. A few times each year I'll go to the mall or something and easily drop three figures on myself. Why? Because I just want to. Self medication? Maybe, but that's a whole different issue. I don't like to spend money for no reason, but I am a sucker for spending unproductive money. What do I mean by unproductive money? It's crap that I buy that isn't practical, or has no re-use value. I hate that. Right off the top of my head, I can think of forty dollars worth of unproductive crap I've bought. I'm pretty sure there's actually at least twice that much worth of crap, probably even three times. Whatever. Money. They were right about it. While nice to have, it can't buy everything.

High school in the morning, then LOTR at night. Final in between. Team arf please have cell phones ready in case the need backup call is given.

[01:53] person 1: you must still be suffering from cv vision
[01:54] person 1: from here it is looking worse than berkeley vision
If I remember correctly Berkeley vision isn't that bad.

[20:40] if there's grass, play ball

[23:51] he thinks he's american beauty

StrikeoutK (11:54:12 PM): with the public freak show then

[00:00] off to the guillotine

[20:48] ken: write about love for me
[20:49] me: is that a joke

-jaylu

Uh I just went outside for a bit, and it's really really cold out there. Came back hearing Marooned by Pink Floyd. Way to go, Jerry. Maybe you just got yourself sick again.

All hands, abandon ship. All hands, abandon ship...
back in the water.

i'll go where he wont go

The english teacher was pretty useless in helping us prepare for the final. She has problems picking up that most of the class didn't read the assigned reading. Oh well. Also took the psych final. All I will say on that is booya. I studied maybe one hour on that thing, at most. Got home in time to eat dinner at home. Played some Splinter Cell. Now I have to write a few short essays for my sociology final.

After a close call, my idea borrowed from Goldeneye still hasn't been used yet. Yess! Maybe everybody should start watching E! or something for some fashion advice and do's and do not's.

I had some tasty meat for dinner. Good thing I get my meat from a store like Safeway or Albertsons. Places like those are the only ones where I like to deal with meat.

Happy belated bday goes out to Charles.

target operator: "Are you the one I was giving trouble to a few weeks ago?"
me: "Maybe."
target operator: "You know about being in the newspaper and you and that girl being boyfriend and girlfriend."
me: "That's me"
At least The Wedding Planner is only $9.44 now.

cV sUsIe (2:13:44 AM): nobody around me committed suicide yet

[12:10] i dont want my kids looking like retards
[18:40] you're not exactly the ripe age to watch it either
[21:38] my almost 2 month old hamster babies just had babies

Uh it was a "clear" day two hours ago. Now it's pouring, and coming down at a 45 degree angle. The two trash bins across the street just got owned, haha.

I got out of bed two hours later than I wanted to. Crap.

Okay I got scared.

It's super windy, and pretty cold up in this heezy.

Outlining for my end of year one thousand word blog has begun. Haha, I'll outline for this but not any of my school essays. Good to know you have your priorities straight, Jerry.

rets0022 (11:44:44 PM): you take long ass showers
rets0022 (11:44:47 PM): you shower longer than a girl
rets0022 (11:45:16 PM): it's like .. you shower for sooo long.. wonder what the heck you do in there that takes so long... *ahem*

rets0022 (12:36:12 AM): that's a long ass shower
Total elapsed time: 51 minutes. LOL.

i never promised you a happy ending, you never said you wouldn't make me cry

Woke up at 8:00 AM in the freaking morning for a 9:00 start time at work. I got there, and it said "carts" right above my name on the schedule. Oh no you don't. Especially when it's raining. That would be ludicrious. They got somebody else to do it, and stuck me out in camera and sound. I worked three hours before taking a break, which turned out to be good timing because that's when the kfc shipment came. Yep. Kfc day at Target. Big trey fulls of mashed potatoes, gravy, cole slaw, and fried chicken, of course; in addition there were buckets of muffins. Good stuff. I went back to work, and the day passed by quickly. They schedule way too many people out there anyways. Before calling it a day at 3:30 I helped myself to another serving of food, haha. I bought a few things for myself, xmas present for someone else, hollered at a few people because I'm not working for another three weeks, then went home.

I didn't do anything at home, haha. I finally finished downloading Lilo and Stitch, and eventually I'll watch it. I have to write an essay and study for a final that are both tomorrow, or something. Stupid Felix for telling stupider Kevin to change my desktop background. I came home to find myself staring at garbage. I almost couldn't find the old background, which are clouds and green pastures, haha. Fortunately I was able to.

It looks like my winter break plans are coming together. Nice. On another note, I'm still slightly sick; for periods of time, I do lose my voice.

My away message:
theres only us
theres only this
forget regret or life is yours to miss
no other road
no other way
no day but today

"After 90 days, psychologically, you will know if you love the person with love or just for T&A, cuz like after 90 days, if you don't have REAL LOVE, you get tired of the other person."
Ahh. Kinda like that short term long term thing I was talking about.

ShrimpSiumai (5:00:41 PM): um, after reviewing the call, jlu was clearly inbound and a FIRST DOWN
ShrimpSiumai (5:00:48 PM): green light gogogo
I suppose you may refer to me as jlu now if you wish.

[17:14] have you guys played with each other yet

StrikeoutK (7:07:09 PM): i'm trying to unscrew it too
StrikeoutK (7:11:33 PM): squeeze the red thing
StrikeoutK (7:11:38 PM): pull it out

Chanman007 (7:17:30 PM): it's handy to have around

"He kept following me around like a dog."

[19:36] person 1: i hope one day i dont become like my parents
[19:37] person 2: you can never be like me

[23:43] i'm out of ammo

StrikeoutK (7:57:08 PM): tell me why do girl's insist on wearing some shade of red to formals
BaYbEeViCk (7:57:35 PM): because red is my favorite color

now it's your turn to cry

Let me try to think what happened today. Did nothing during the day except play Splinter Cell. Later in the afternoon, Gerald, Tom, Ken, Will, Rob, and I went to the mall to do some shopping. I actually started shopping for other people; I'm about half done now. For once I didn't buy anything for myself, haha. Before going to the mall we stopped by Target, that's all I'll say about that place.

After a dinner break, some of the guys showed up at my house to watch Femme Fatale. It was a pretty confusing movie to follow, until the last twenty minutes when it all became clear. Who really cares? Nobody watched that movie for the plot anyways. We saw that, then sat around for a while, watching some videos of things we've done. Yeah that's about it for now. Nothing else really happened.

I hope all the kids had fun today.

rets0022 (12:47:33 AM): predictable Jerry...

[00:51] maybe you're growing up a little

[00:52] willy: the back of my hand has his name embedded
[00:52] me: now that is very true
[00:53] me: unfortunately i think willy's backhand has touched the back of my head more times than all girls combined

[00:57] well it is the holidays miracles happen around this time of year

Choios (1:43:51 AM): u try to suck it back but u get nothing!

[13:53] i'm coming now

I still can't hear low pitched sounds and my nose is runny yet stuffed up at the same time. Yay. What a paradox. Hopefully I'll be better in the morning.

now you wanna be free, so i let you fly

Uh. Nothing at all today. I woke up late, made myself some rice topped with some egg and chili with bread for lunch. Played some Splinter Cell, and watched the Lakers lose horribly to the Hornets. Maybe it was all meant to be (lol I've heard that wayy too many times this year) this way for later today, which is going to be busy and lots of fun, because I said so. The only time I left the house today was to check out a flipped over suv up near the baseball field, haha. The rain is cool to watch and all, but other than for that reason it basically sucks.

At least I finally got my issues of "Stuff" and "Blender" in the mail.

P8percut23 (1:22:55 AM): (she) has hott friends

person 1: she got curves
person 2: lol
person 2: remember she's asian here yo

"It's a little scandelous in back."

Haha there seems to be a theme up in those few quotes.

StrikeoutK (1:19:17 AM): i don't know what to tell you
StrikeoutK (1:19:25 AM): i suck at advice
StrikeoutK (1:19:25 AM): haha
StrikeoutK (1:19:31 AM): i'll just agree with you
StrikeoutK (1:19:34 AM): and say "damnit"
StrikeoutK (1:19:36 AM): for you

Uhm. Good morning everybody? 2:15 AM - 12:30 PM. Not bad. I did wake up and not fall back asleep for a while around 5:30 ish though.

I'm awake in the infinite cold

Okay yesterday our sociology instructor was fifteen minutes late to class. The replacement instructor has taught maybe five classes and she's arleady been late to more sessions than I have, haha. Oh well. Our group gave our presentation on spousal abuse. Then the other group did their bit on sexual identities. Class was then dismissed.

While at home I played one more mission in AoM. Again it took forever. I also checked out the high school basketball game featuring that 17 year old kid LeBron James. The kid's alright, but he's 6'8" playing against other kids that are like 6'0". No doubt he has skills, but only time will tell what kind of impact he'll have on the NBA.

Around 8:30 or so some of us went to shoot some billiards. Teams were Tom & Jhermaine, Nick & Gerald, and against my better judgement, my brother Kevin and I. I initially wasn't going to take him out since it's a school night and all, but my parents said it was alright so I agreed. I think no one team dominated, but there were some pretty funny and lucky moments. Gerald's quite the hussler. We left around 10:30, and Gerald and I wasted some gas on the boulevard, but he also lost some tread in his tires. Nick blocked Gerald in lane 1 in front of PW, and I was blocked in lane 2, forcing me into lane 3. No clear answer on who would have won.

No idea what's going on today. Saturday is shopping day. Saturday night we're going out and dropping some money.

I'm still semi-sick, but I'm getting better. Now my ears are plugged and I can't hear low or soft sounds. At least I can breath and not feel like I'm going to pass out now.

"I aint no Santa."
-"ho ho ho"

"Why did the size get so big?"
"I think it's the extra narrowness."
"It just flows out."
"I'll buy myself a stick."
"Like I'm gonna be home to play on it."

flaureea (2:02:15 AM): jerk

[02:04] person 1: with anyone in this channel trying to say they're not a nerd
[02:04] person 1: when we come to irc to talk about girls
[02:04] person 1: i think that seals our fate
[02:04] person 2: i'm not a nerd

[02:35] ucd student 1: there were a lot of good looking girls today
[02:35] ucd student 2: didn't notice
[02:35] ucd student 1: either that or i have been wearing cs goggles for too long

"Like a female with good looks who cooks and clean."

"With trying to get yourselves killed...
can I join?"

"I just went pee.... and I realized that my underwear is on inside out
now i can wear it again tomorrow!"

"How was were we goin earlier?"
What?!

tell me just what you want me to be

Half the class showed up late to english. Pretty easy day up in there; talked about movies and the history and decline of. In psych we exchanged questions for the final exam, and proceeded to celebrate the end of the semester by eating food that the class pitched in money for. Costco pizza, some veggie plates, and a few dessert like things formed the buffet style environment. I liked that class, not too difficult, and instructor was great.

Precalc final earlier tonight. I basically started studying this afternoon in english class, then in psych and in any breaks I had in between. It didn't seem too bad. The whole semester wasn't in those ten questions that made up the test. No idea how well I did though. It's gonna be close. Certainly it's going to fare better than those high school math finals I took. What a joke.

The LPC mofos don't take American Express. Bah.

I drove pretty fast coming home earlier. My week's basically over. Black Angus for lunch next Friday! Shopping this Saturday, then need to find something to do that night.

I'm still sick, but I'm feeling much better now. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

rets0022 (11:48:57 PM): question.. do you have dimples?
StrikeoutK (11:49:27 PM): hahaha
StrikeoutK (11:49:30 PM): i wish
StrikeoutK (11:49:32 PM): not really
StrikeoutK (11:49:38 PM): unless i'm smiling like a mofo

ShrimpSiumai (1:48:10 AM): i waste so much time online
StrikeoutK (1:48:56 AM): hahha
StrikeoutK (1:48:58 AM): who doesn't
StrikeoutK (1:49:02 AM): it's been like that since 8th grade

"Don't be so stubborn."

Santana [Feat Michelle Branch] - The Game of Love

Hahaha. I slept at 2:45 or so yesterday morning, and I woke up about 10 minutes ago. Sweet. Now I have to study for a final or something. I'm feeling much better than I was yesterday, so hopefully things will be uphill from now.

A record 28 bored people came to the site yesterday. Keep those uniques coming!

According to the scale, I might have lost 1.5 pounds or so. Three more to go and being sick would have been worth it.

too much pride, and you know men don't cry

Went to my one class, but didn't get to present out presentation. Oh well. I thought I had an appointment to see the counselor at 2:00, but turns out it was at 1:00. At that time I'm in class, so obviously I missed the appointment. Came home and played some Splinter Cell.

I'm sick and not feeling well. I'm tired too. I didn't really study for my precalc final that's tomorrow yet. Maybe I'll take a look later. Probably not. It sucks being sick. TImes being sick so far this winter: one.

Gilmore's and Smallville were reruns today. The Warriors beat the Lakers, which is good and bad for me because I have three Warriors on my fantasy team, but the Lakers are my favorite team. Oh well. Time to shower.

So I hear the weather this week is going to be hellish. Bah.

[17:04] Gerald: ur not a girl, stop shopping every weekend

[22:14] me: then i'll pull an apie
[22:14] willy: that'd just scare them away
[22:14] tom: HAHAHA
[22:15] gerald: uh
[22:15] gearald: u better not pull a apie
[22:15] gerald: u know how word gets around...
[22:16] tom: jerry is gonna do an apple pie?

I'm so sick right now. I woke up and my throat felt horrible. Now it hurts when I swallow. For lunch I'm eating tuna and lettuce, in non-salad form.

me and you, we was a match,
different tastes but you know, opposites attract

Well you all know about my morning. I showed up to class thirty minutes late, but oh well, watching a video in there anyways. Turned in that monster of an essay. Went to Costco. Last day of psych lecture was today. Food on Wedensday. Sooner or later I'm gonna be blind again. Last day of precalc lecture today. After lecture was review for final. I should study for that sometime.

It is not safe leaving that Livermore area at night with heavy fog. Can't see crap.

I'm getting sick or something. I'm tasting it in my throat, coming from my nose. Doesn't feel so hot.

Shopping on Saturday. I'll find my own way to spend 150 dollars. Oh yeah I'm supposed to hang out with Ken cuz otherwise he's going to be lonely online.

[01:02] Phillip: so like..why do you use the name pansy?..
Because "stalker" just doesn't have the same ring to it. Plus I retired.

How to write a university caliber paper:
"Write the paper first, add research later." -Tim, second year UCB student

"You are blind." -Nick
Ahh, that's so common nowadays.

Okay I'm late. Here goes nothing.

The functional family. A perfect partner. Love. These are some ideologies explored in Alice Munro’s 2001 collection of short stories: Hateship, Friendship, Courtship, Loveship, Marriage: Stories. The author divulges into many aspects of male-female relationships, offering her insights to both positive and negative viewpoints of love.

That's what I've done in one hours work.

I woke up at 9:00, but I just got out of bed two minutes ago. I'm screwed.

Okay screw essay. Sleeping now. Working on paper in morning. If I don't get it finished in time, cutting out.

Earlier we witnessed the closest thing to date to the webcam scene in American Pie.

pride's what you had baby girl, i'm what you have

Target. I got yelled at 2.5 times. First for being fifteen minutes late, haha. Half because my supervisor thought I already took a break at 12:00 PM, even though I came in at 10:00 AM. It was like 1:40. If you ask any cashier or front lane support person if they get their breaks at two hours, they will probably say no. Nobody gets their breaks on time when it's busy. Then I got yelled at because I took a thirty minute break. Haha. Well I was sitting near the back in food ave, and couldn't hear the page. Oh well. Whatever. Whose there to "work" anyways? Carts are impossible this time of year for one person to do. Need backup. Stick me on any lane not numbered 14, 15, or 16. Feet hurt, back hurt, spirits are... good.

Ah Target. That place never ceases to (insert adjective) me. Game on?

Man. All those people that don't return carts to the cart wells. Bah. Some baby retched beween lanes 13 and 11, and I had to mop it up. Suck.

I got Christmas shopping done for one person. I still haven't started shopping for the amigas. Doh.

Nick's a pretty smart guy. His ideas are right, but the stories he thinks up to explain his ideas are pretty whack. Shoulda stopped when you were ahead =\

Raiders won. Alias was good. Didn't do much. Crest Whitestrip adventure has commenced.

Have major essay to do due tomorrow afternoon. I'm screwed. I think I'm going to cut out, or show up late at least. Probably cut out.

I forgot to mention the other night. How did cvhs get so rich all of the sudden? Fog machine, fancy projector, sound booth. Pretty nice stuff. What's with the extension of the cafeteria though, that's pretty whack. Also what's with 600 hall being indoors now. That's janky. Makes the area feel all closed up. Why was Maxwell emceeing/introducing the pops concert? Get off the stage. Find someone next time. Please.

My away during work:
the heart may freeze
or it can burn
the pain will ease
if i can learn
there is no future
there is no past
i live this moment as my last

StrikeoutK (12:23:26 AM): haha (so) that chick "hates" me?
n s x 0 19 (12:23:37 AM): no
n s x 0 19 (12:24:06 AM): but i can guarantee she wouldn't sit on your lap
Wake up now Jerry. *slap*

ShrimpSiumai (7:27:25 PM): don't get your boats mixed up
ShrimpSiumai (7:28:23 PM): i thought you're on the yellow submarine
and we lived beneath the waves, in a yellow submarine

[19:29] chester: how come you're always scratchin your head?
[19:29] willy: i haven't showered yet

[19:37] me: i'm only worth .5 a person though
[19:37] phillup: .5 man maybe, but not .5 person

hippotardimus (5:25:46 PM): i'll buy you a lapdance for this!
I'm gonna remember that...

StrikeoutK (10:47:50 PM): who(se) that?
hippotardimus (10:47:56 PM): my hot date!
hippotardimus (10:47:57 PM): except
hippotardimus (10:47:58 PM): she has a bf
Always a problem. =(

1: "Drinking is the reason why we have civilization."
2: "Probably."
Must be good to be old.

"Always something to good to look at." -Nick
True that.

it's the love i haven't got

Shopping, Pops Concert
Whoo. As for afternoon, played Splinter Cell. As the late afternoon approached, it was time to go out, so I headed over to Ken's house to pick him and Charles up to go to the mall. I gave Nick a ring, and turns out the guy was studying at the library or something like that. He's supposed to teach me how to rent dvds from the library sometime. Anyways we were able to get him to come along. As we were driving out to the mall, young Ken started reflecting on his childhood, and how much he misses having a Christmas tree with presents under it. Ah, behind that enticing grin and pants at his thighs, the guy's still a kid.

The mall. Haven't been there in a while. We went into Gap, and I debated whether or not to drop sixty dollars on a jacket. For some reason, I said no. We then went over to Banana Republic, where everybody got something. I then made my way to Champs where I was going to exchange some shoes (that I didn't buy there but who cares), but they didn't have my size. Okay I said, no problem. I go up to Footlocker, and they had my size, so I exchanged the pair. Then I bought myself a whole other pair of shoes, haha. Now the tmac ii's are going to replace the Iverson's as my basketball shoes, and the sl iii's will replace my Kswiss'. Tomorrow I will be going back for some black laces. Willy's reason for bombing junior year now works at Victoria's Secret. Arf.

Pops concert this year was better than last's. As soon as I get a program, I'm going to download all the songs that I've always known but never knew the names of. Good show. They've gotten better about not sending the same people up on stage through the whole show, and the length of the show was perfect. No more 40 number productions. I'd have to say the guy's numbers were pretty good. Only two guys were in the dance number this year. Then again whose paying attention to that? Ken managed to embarrass me for 3 seconds. Punk. Irony also made an appearance.

Sorry Nick for not paying attention to you while you were talking, haha. I'll try to not let that happen again < /sarcasm >.

Mugging. It really pisses me off.

Some girls just... Eh. Whatever.

I haven't watched the whole thing yet, but it seems that Femme Fatale is going to be one hot movie to watch. After browsing through the movie, I don't even care about the plot anymore. It's too bad it bombed at the box office. I also skimmed through Maid in Manhattan. It doesn't seem to be that great of a movie, but then again the quality was crap compared to Fatale's near flawlessness and I wasn't paying as much attention to it as I was to Rebecca Romijn, err I mean Femme Fatale. I might just watch that movie in crap quality on my monitor, because of that whole being-a-movie critic thing.

I didn't get any shopping for other's done today. Once I start shopping for myself I just can't help it. So sorry. I promise to eventually go shopping for all the amigas out there. Maybe some of the guys too. Then again I owe half of them a lunch or drink anyways, so I dunno.

I'm really glad to have eyes and all, but in this case, thank Heaven I'm in college.

ahdude/retardedman/hippotardimus is quite the pedophile.

Sometimes I wish I were ghetto.
"I want to see girls in underwear now" -Ken

For all my shoe purchases:
"How come you're not a girl?" -dad
Always good for one liners.

[00:28] person 1: you're trapped in a guys body
[00:29] person 2: you probably would have been better off a girl
[00:29] person 2: shoot
[00:29] person 1: twis
[00:29] me: =\
[00:29] person 2: you wouldn't have to work for guys... that is if you aren't fugly
[00:29] me: thanks
[00:29] person 1: and wouldn't seem so gay
[00:30] me: haha
[00:30] me: tha would suck then
[00:30] me: i'd still have to buy clothes
[00:30] me: but i'd have to buy makeup and bras too
[00:30] person 3: and thongs
[00:30] person 3: that's load of $ man
[00:31] me: twis
[00:31] person 2: not at target
[00:31] person 2: hahaha
[00:31] me: target and their winnie the pooh thongs

I have to do a five page paper due Monday afternoon. Again, I'm screwed.

I'm such the moron. I clicked on the enter password field, and it got rid of my saved password which I have no idea wt heck is because I made it a weird one because someone still has their email account under my name. Weak.
[Update 12:50 PM] Okay I finally guessed it. Yay.

I dreamt that I was at Costco, where there I saw something not so good. Luckily the phone rang and woke me up.

i've already planned it, here’s how it’s gonna be:
i’m gonna love you and you’re gonna fall in love with me

Woke up late today, like past noon, haha. Didn't do much. Worked on my Splinter Cell the whole afternoon. Fried myself some rice for lunch (which was at like 2:30 PM), haha. Finally went out in the evening to play some billiards with Nick, Jhermaine, and Tom. Nick and I lost 1-4, boo. Good thing we weren't playing for anything. Then went to Jack after, and I had an Oreo shake. Coming home, Nick and I used about three dollars worth of gasoline. Oh well.

Mall and Target tomorrow. I've said that for a while, but tomorrow for sure.

One thing I hate is pretending to know something when you actually really don't anything. Especially if the person doing the pretending is a girl. That really sucks. Refrain from using that complicated mind and thinking process and don't jump to conclusions about me. Get the facts straight first, then form your opinion. Until you do, please, get off, and eat it.
[Update 1:00 AM] I was thinking about it in the shower, and basically everything's based on rumors. What garbage. I deserve more than just how my name was passed around the rumor mill.

Did you all catch the Lakers come back from 30 down and beat the Mavericks (the best team in the NBA)? That was magical.

ShrimpSiumai (1:50:02 AM): there seems to be more pretty girls at sj now
ShrimpSiumai (1:50:07 AM): maybe all the ugly ones dropped out
StrikeoutK (1:50:26 AM): hahahhah
StrikeoutK (1:50:27 AM): no
StrikeoutK (1:50:31 AM): it's just starting to suck more
StrikeoutK (1:50:34 AM): so you're noticing them more
StrikeoutK (1:50:42 AM): same at lpc
StrikeoutK (1:50:49 AM): more pretty girls in classes
ShrimpSiumai (1:50:54 AM): you mean my standards are dropping?
StrikeoutK (1:51:05 AM): not necessarily
StrikeoutK (1:51:10 AM): it's just becuase when you went into it
ShrimpSiumai (1:51:10 AM): damn
StrikeoutK (1:51:16 AM): you had energy and crap
StrikeoutK (1:51:19 AM): now that school sucks
StrikeoutK (1:51:22 AM): you drop your guard

Looks like I barely missed.

Friends
To all my friends, thanks.

Good afternoon everybody!

Screwy computer - winamp doesn't work. Downloading... so can't reboot. Listening to Les Mis cd instead.

don’t try to run honey, love can be fun

Sociology just got a lot less stressful. Since we have a new instructor, and nobody knows wth we're doing, our group presentations can now be "winged." The new instructor told us to do so. Yay for the bs shovel. Also, the final is now a series of take home essays. Whoo.

Took the car to shop today. Got the window fixed. Now it goes down smoothly. Then I discover that the passenger window scratches against the side going up. I have to take the car to the dealer now one of these days. Bah. Finally went to ortho. I was two months overdue. Turn's out that I didn't even have to go, as no adjustments were made.

I played James Bond 007: Nightfire for the first time today. It's not that impressive so far. The graphics aren't the greatest, and the AI is whack. Also, the only way to kill people is with a headshot or something; the guns don't seem to do any damage as far as torso and limb shots are concerned.

Ah those Warriors. I'll never understand how they play. Caught Friends and E.R. earlier. Drs. Kovac and Harkins are hooking up next week! That punk!

I have just discovered the full capabilities if mIRC xdcc'ing. Where have I been all this time?

thought that we had a chance,
but together was too hard for you

Wow. We actually did something else in english class besides listen to the instructor talk about the next or read out of a book today. A movie! Too bad so far it's boring. It's called McCabe & Mrs. Miller, and it came out over 30 years ago. We'll see how it turns out though. Too bad I can't hear anything; the instructor wont turn it up. Stupid book review due Monday, and movie review in two weeks. What a waste of time.

Psych was pretty cool today. We did some group work that consisted of dissecting our day and how we spend our time. The instructor asked to be specific, so some groups had time alloted for sex, and one group set time aside for peeing and pooping, haha. Instructor laughed so hard she started crying, haha. Ah yes, I like that class... < sarcasm >cuz I'm just learning so so much< /sarcasm >. Haha, screw that. When did I ever like a class because of it's content?

Hyperbolas in precalc. How come conic sections weren't this easy in high school? Remember how I got a 40x on that test, and had to take it over? What a knee slapper. How pathetic. One more regular day in that class; final on Wednesday.

Mall and Target tomorrow afternoon after I get my car back from the shop. Want to get another pair of shoes, and start my Christmas shopping. Say bye-bye money. Money: "bye-bye." Okay that was retarded.

Malibu Jelli (12:47:52 AM): what have i done to be graced by the prescence of jerrys instant messaging tonight
It's no secret; I'm predictable.

Sonnet 116
Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments; love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove.
O no, it is an ever fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.
Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come;
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ nor no man ever loved.

Eh I set the alarm for 10:30 AM. I just got out of bed three minutes ago, haha.

"Who could refrain that had a heart to love and that heart courage to make loves note?"
-Macbeth

SONNET 56
Sweet love, renew thy force; be it not said
Thy edge should blunter be than appetite,
Which but to-day by feeding is allay'd,
To-morrow sharpen'd in his former might:
So, love, be thou; although to-day thou fill
Thy hungry eyes even till they wink with fullness,
To-morrow see again, and do not kill
The spirit of love with a perpetual dullness.
Let this sad interim like the ocean be*
Which parts the shore, where two contracted new
Come daily to the banks, that, when they see
Return of love, more blest may be the view;
Else call it winter, which being full of care
Makes summer's welcome thrice more wish'd, more rare.

In contemporary english:

Sweet love, renew your strength; let it not be said
That your power is weaker than the power of lust,
Lust which is satisfied today
But tomorrow will return even more intense,
So love, be with me, although today you fill
Your hungry eyes until, saturated, they close
Tomorrow open them again, and do not kill
The spirit of love or let it sink into boredom.
Let this sad interval be like the ocean
Which parts the shore, where two engaged lovers
Come daily to the sea-side, and when they see
The return of love, the view is even greater.
Or let this sad interval be like winter, which being full of anxiety
Makes summer's arrival all the more wonderful and rare.

the city goes to bed, and i can live inside my head

Sociology started eight minutes late. Any later and class would have dismissed itself. That class is so pointless now. Nobody knows what to do for their projects, and five minutes after the teacher starts her lecture she goes off takling about her own life. That's about it.

Oh yeah, I found a dr grip type of pencil in the library the other day. The circle is complete, ahdude lost his pen, and I found one. Haha. Warriors won three straight! Smallville was a rerun; the one with a hot teacher. Real World was weak.

Earlier we talked about ever having hot teachers or substitutes. I think I've come the closest. Then we were told by the older people that high school, throughout the generations, pretty much doesn't change. That's pretty interesting.

Looks like I have to take my car to the shop on Thursday to get my window fixed. It rolls down too slow. Bah.

Anybody up for Nutcracker out in Oakland? Dates? Oh fosho. Oh, you mean like when. Here.

I just finished watching 10 Things I Hate About You. I really like that movie. If I ever see the dvd for cheap, I'm gonna buy it.

From the movie:
"Who needs affection when I have blind hatred?"
"My insurance does not cover pms."
"What is it with this chick? She has beer flavored boobs?"
"Just cuz you're beautiful doesnt mean you can treat everyone like they don't matter."
"You need therapy."

I hate the way you talk to me,
And the way you cut your hair,
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots,
And the way you read my mind,
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
It even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you're always right,
I hate it when you lie,
I hate it when you make me laugh --
Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around,
And the fact that you didn't call,
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you --
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

two phantoms in the shadows of the moon

Man, I woke up early yesterday morning for nothing. Got up, read like 40 pages of a story, then wrote an essay in record time. Less than one hour. Turns out we didn't have to write an essay at all, just list some answers. We didn't even turn that stuff in. Sucks big time. In psych we did some group work, and the ball is finally starting to roll. No, just kidding, but the battle between that class and sociology is getting more intense. Also got back precalc test back. Not bad if I say so myself. I thought I bombed it, but I B'd it instead. Yay.

Someone's girlfriend here. Nothing nasty or anything, more funny. Then again, maybe not.

[11:08] gerald: we started a revolution

hippotardimus (11:30:27 AM): tap that before puberty does

[11:19] willy: buy one of those things
[11:20] willy: you know those things with the two wheels
[11:20] willy: forgot what they are called
[11:20] gerald: um
[11:20] gerald: a bike?
Lol.

i dreamed a dream in time gone by

I got up at 8:30 AM for an ever-so-early shift at Target. It was so early that I didn't have time to think up a short original poem for the occasion. Anyways, I started on carts, and at first things were doing alright. Then they pulled me to do a whole bunch of sales floor work, and from then on things got hectic. I helped guests on the floor, gave camera and sound a hand, and pushed some stuff. Man, I got pretty pissed of two times during the day. The first time was when some guy asked me to pull out some tubs to push, but it turns out he told me to grab the wrong ones. So I had to go put that crap back and get a whole new dolly full of something else. The second time I got pissed was when I asked for help, and the guy basically told me to do it myself. They don't pay me enough.

Apparently some guest that was being serviced out in camera and sound got mad at the quality of service. While I was grabbing carts outside, someone comes out and tells me to camp outside of the store until that lady leaves, haha. She was really pissed off or something. Again, they don't pay me enough.

All in all, it was a brutal day. I was tired as a mofo, and I was actually starting to get sore or something. Those stupid tubs are heavy. I didn't take my break until I was 3.5 hours into my shift. Oh well. My hands are now beat up and sore. Heavy work causes callouses and rough skin. That added to all the existing cuts and scrapes from the day's work, car work, and assembling of materials in days past. It's all good though. A new shirt to wear to work! Woohoo. I turned in my time off requests for winter break. Next to reason, I put: holidays, sobering up. Hahaha.

Didn't do anything at home except watch Alias. I'm so lazy. I have to read a 50 page short story, then write an essay on it. Due 2:30 PM tomorrow. Forget those teachers that assign homework over holidays and weekends. Evil.

Pictures from Friday are up. Check them out here. Oh and on a different matter, Pbase.com has pissed off Garrett for the moment.

Young Ken finally submitted his personal statement after many people helping him out and some trouble with actually submitting the thing. Remember now, go 4/4 and you'll get lunch. 3/4 gets you a drink. Anything less and you're paying for me. Good luck to him and the rest of the kids. Remember, I'm always looking for quality college gear. Apparel from Penn State, Duke, and especially UCLA and Stanford will be greatly appreciated. Under no circumstance am I going to pay for anything that bears the UCB logo.

hippotardimus (12:07:04 AM): THIS IS BETTER THAN ANY TERA PATRICK

me (9:07:31 AM): what's up
sam (9:07:38 AM): sobering up
sam (9:07:41 AM): and working on some hw
sam (9:07:41 AM): hah
me (9:07:45 AM): lollol
sam (9:08:05 AM): MGD hit the spot =P
Hahaha. Although I'm no fan of beer, but still... oh fosho!

i know she'll wait, i know that she'll be true

Finished up the last of two long days. Woke up at like 11:00 AM or so, after sleeping at like 4:30. Crazy. Went over to Allison's house for a mini cv c/o 2002 reunion. It was nice seeing everybody; I stayed for about an hour or so. Then some of us went to the rec to play some basketball against the xs guys. This time team arf came out on top, tying the series at 1-1. Then I came home and found out that I finally have a tv in my room again. It's not the greatest tv, but it's a tv, the picture's color, and I didn't pay for it, so it's all good. All I need now is a vcr. After I got out of the shower, at like 11:30 PM, Rob and I went to Carol's house to hang out with some folks for a few hours.

I had a great outline for this blog earlier in the shower, but I've forgotten most of it. Drats. We shared some college stories today, and basically the only thing I've gotten from them is that I've gypped / screwed myself by living at home going to LPC. Even if it's ucr, it's still dorm life, and I'm going to miss out on that for at least another semester. But in the end, it was all my fault to begin with anyways. This is my punishment. Oh well, until then I'll have to settle for all the great stories. As for the other issue that's been dragging on and on and been nagging and so on and so forth: hopefully it's now laid to rest, with closure.

I have decided to try out for the Chabot intercollegiate baseball squad come spring. Maybe in part due to slightly disappointing my parents by not really considering it senior year, maybe for exercise, maybe to meet people, or maybe just to have something to do. I'll go out for the team, barring any missed mandatory deadlines that have already passed, or major schedule conflicts with classes.

To the amazement to some, you only "lose" your virginity once. Yeah, though I believe it's something more that you give, not lose. Then again, it's not really yours if inevitably it's gone anyways. Yet again, wth would I know about most things anyways.

Perhaps because of the mood lately, or maybe just because it's been a year now since I've turned in my personal statement, I've decided to share my first essay. This is the raw, first draft of the essay that I wrote right after I got pissed over something and was crazy frustrated. Anyways, read it here. Only a few people have read this; not even all of arf has seen it. I guess you can ask me about anything on it if you'd like. Yeah, I've always known I'm not perfect. Now you know for sure.